My First Big Money Event

Just a few weeks after my initial attempts at applying the Law of Attraction, I was pretty darn close to giving up.  Given that my main focus and the biggest need in my life was financial, finances were (and are) my major barometer for success.  Not that I had any expectations that anything would have happened after a few weeks, but my financial outlook was really bad and nothing at all was looking up.  I was si nking into a pretty sizeable depression and was having a hard time saying anything positive to myself, let alone my affirmations.

My husband had been doing some work on our tax benefits.  When we first figured out our budget for living in London - based on the information found online - things looked pretty promising.  The reality wasn't so cheery, and after the better part of a year we realized that a big part of our problem was that we actually had to apply for many of the benefits we assumed we were qualified for.

We got a letter in the mail with the result of one such application.  In the depths of my depressive haze, I glanced at the letter.  I saw a benefit figure of like £5 a month, and tossed the letter aside.  "If that is the type of improvement I am likely to see in my life, then forget it" I thought. I know I had a look of death on my face as my kids came home and I muddled through the afternoon.  When my husband came home from work, he picked up the letter and read it more in depth than I.  "Did you see this?" he said.  "Yeah, whoopie, 5 quid a month" I said.  "They are giving us £4,000" he said.

Wow, he was right!  The tax benefit we never got because we didn't realize we had to apply was all being applied in one lump sum.  My first thought was "it works!"

My second thought was "wow, I hope I didn't blow it all with all the negative thoughts I have been generating over my last 48 hours of depression and negativity!"  I remembered a section in Louise Hay's book, You Can Heal Your Life that told of a story of a many who had a financial windfall but didn't believe it it had anything to do with his positive affirmations and felt he didn't deserve it.  The next week he had an injury that cost the same amount to care for as his windfall. I was a little afraid my recent bad attitude would cause it all to go away again.

My third thought was "wait a minute, government entitlements is hardly what the Law of Attraction is about."  Yet, if we didn't open ourselves up to making it happen, they never would have been in our bank account.  I don't think the Law of Attraction is talking about miracles or magic.  It is talking about making life work in your favor when you let it.

My fourth thought was "I better start working on my affirmations again right now!"  I didn't want to let this success rest, I was determine to build upon it and make it real!